Nothing to be alarmed at …

Monday…..

It’s Monday once again, although after being awake most of the night previous, I am really not so sure if it’s more akin to Sunday part two,. Why so restless?, (Now I know your all very intrigued), well in true Treez fashion I will tell you, Are we all sitting comfortably?, have Cuppas to the ready?, maybe a biscuit or a pack would more apropos, Good then let’s begin. Around the middle of every month Jesse Orders my repeat prescription for me from the doctor’s,. Then magically in that same week we get a nice chap called Mick deliver them to my door, his a real sweetie bless him.😁

Note in the above paragraph I said “USUALLY” 😁, By Thursday over a week later I’ve not received my meds,. Both myself and Jesse become antsy when this happens, Because both Meds must not be missed on any occasion, especially the one which is a Beta blocker, even just hours late, my heart races and I feel trembly, (nothing pleasant I can assure you. Now for one reason or another in the past my meds have gone AWOL before, Normally the chemists driver is out of action or some such. And like on this occasion I generally give them a call,. And After several failed attempts I actually manage to get through., This time I’m told by one very harassed sounding chemist that they have been sent out for delivery and I should receive them later that day(Thursday).. I’m somewhat comforted by this, as I’ve just enough meds up until that Sunday morning, (so we are cutting things abit fine, but ok), plus I also don’t want to add to the anxiety levels of the poor chemist chap who already sounds about ready for his head to start spinning 160°. .. (This is roughly around noon now

As the sun begins to drop low in a winter cloudy sky, I already know for certain, the meds won’t be arriving anytime that day. ..Friday comes and goes by the same way, no sign of any delivery.. I’m becoming more ill at ease as time ticks by for i know now, without a shadow of a doubt the meds won’t be turning up this side of the weekend, the dreaded phone call must be repeated, I hate it, anyone who has a likewise phobia of phones will be on my wavelength, but there is no one else here to do it, so quite rightly it’s up to me…thank goodness this time I get straight through without any delay, I explain the problem, shuttering and get in myself in muddle, but after a couple of minutes i,m able to make myself understood well enough..At first the Chemist begins by telling me they have no script there for me,..(oh please I’m thinking don’t tell me this, it’s late Friday afternoon and even on some off chance I manage to get through to the reception at my doctor’s, it will take days to sort., I can already feel the adrenaline begin coursing through my veins where I’m increasingly stressed. But then the conversation of Thursday comes to mind, and find myself calmly explaining that I was told my meds had already been sent out for delivery. To his credit he puts me in hold and goes to check.

There’s no plinky plonky music, no annoying song you won’t get out of your head for hours, (maybe days) just this unnerving silence, like the lines infact gone dead,.(a silent black hole) Now I’m left wondering do I hang up or perhaps chance ringing again, i wait, Its taking the cowards way out but I’m glad I persistented… Some minutes later though his back, with an answer I just don’t want to hear at that moment, “well There’s good news, I’ve found your prescription “, to me this news is anything but good, this means it’s not coming out to me now until Monday at the earliest, but that’s me being the optimist, I’m suddenly hearing a jumble of words and something that sounds remarkably like ” Thursday”…my throat goes suddenly dry, I want to explain about the tablets, this in effect means four long days without meds, one I could possibly wing it if I had to, but four days without the Beta blockers, would be a living nightmare.

Though after a moment I do manage to explain finally, and he comes back with there’s no driver till at least Thursday, Couldn’t I drive down myself and pick them up…erm no I say, you really wouldn’t want me driving even if that were indeed an option,. have mercy on the other road users please!…He then asks do I not have a neighbour who could either bring me in or pick them up, No I tell him as nice as they all are, we are only just recently, on a nod and curtain twitch basis, ..he’s becoming increasingly exasperated with this whole conversation, and I don’t blame him one bit, because I know the feeling., I sigh as I know what’s going to have to happen, I’m going to have to get a cab and go in on Monday …🙄.

Monday ….

After another restless night, fearing I would oversleep, I nearly did exactly that, the cab was booked for 10am , and I finally fell into a deep sleep around 7am typical!. I did however wake with a start just after 9, then of course everything is a rush, I need to shower, find clothes, shoes, purse..rarely going out you kind of get out of practice, by the time 10am and the cab arrives i,m exhausted😁, but at least I’m ready. My driver isn’t the most sociable of chaps, but then having to leave the comfort of home I don’t think I am either, So we travel in silence, this tells on me greatly, because my link with Jesse also loses internet as so as I sit in the back seat..I feel out of sorts, uneasy, but know needs must and work hard on my distraction technique…looking out the window😁

It’s been almost five months since I’ve gone anywhere further than the doctors, but I’m soon intrigued by the goings on around me, the sky’s a gorgeous cobalt blue, the airs cool and fresh, and I’m fine, I’m doing this…it takes fifteen minutes to arrive outside my chemist, I ask my driver repeatedly if the cab is booked for me to get home, he repeatedly chooses to blank my inquiry…I pay him get out the cab and leave, somewhat still perturbed by not having any fixed answer about it returning…we had booked it to come back an hour after drop off, the night previous, I just have to have faith it will is all 😁.

Picking up my prescription was way too simple, maybe unervingly so, now i think back on it 😁,. I’ve still half an hour to kill, so decide in my infinite wisdom to do a quick shop, there’s time right?, ..And if all had gone to plan, I would have indeed been fine…never goes to plan around me though does it😁, . only needing a few things, some salad, meat, three eggs(yes you saw that correct, you can now buy any number you want😲, I got such a kick out of that!, After picking up a few more things i am done, and with time spare..just the self service to make it through now then!…

As I begin sliding my first items across the barcode reader thingy, someplace off in the distance I think I can hear an alarm sounding, it begins quite softly, I note it all the same,. I’m none too concerned though. That is until it changes it tone, suddenly it’s decibels louder and it’s intensity reaches fever pitch, I swear my ear drums are getting ready to explode, I’m also ready to explode with it, for some reason the screaming sound sets adrenaline racing through my body, I’m gritting my teeth, feeling a rage build I’ve not felt in some years…my body is flooded with every kind of emotion, the most notably is the need to escape this infernal noise😁, it’s an undescribable sound, just one that’s killing my sensitive hearing…then staff come along and begin shepherding myself and my fellow shoppers around like a bunch of over zealous Border collies, ” leave everything folks!!!” ” leave everything they bark at us!!” ..I’m fully expecting them to start nipping at our heels next….

There we are, herded into a huddle outside, not quite penned, so I will knock off points for that😁, some of us strayed outside the group, myself included, I found myself a bench to sit on, enjoying some warmth from the wintry sun and await my ears to finally stop ringing….turns out it was a practice fire alarm and within minutes we were allowed to return to locate our errant shopping trollies…a lovely assistant is suddenly at my side, asking do I need any help…I assure her I’m fine, finding I actually am to my surprise., I tell her though I swear the shop management team, had realised I havnt been out in months and did this deliberately, she smiles and goes about her way to the next customer …it could only happen to me folks, see this is why I don’t go out 😁, ….Stay warm folks and look after yourselves, until next time ❤❤❤❤.