Bad moon arising ….

Wednesday..

It’s been nearly three months since I left my flat last. Theres reasons,far too many reasons infact to list, but the main one being, I know full well if I don’t go anywhere it’s the sure and only way to prevent money leaking from my wallet,(this is also the reason I have a broken zipper on it, I swear my wallets deliberately denying me access to my card).. Thinking of designing a wallet that either slaps my hands or shocked my fingers when I try opening it,(this could in fact be a thing😁) Anyhow Monday morning I learnt I was in fact going to have to leave my comfy nest and venture forth into the great unknown(ok the pharmacy to pick up my prescription, (same thing) my delivery service aka Dave was on his holidays….

This was going to mean either a cab ride at £20 a time or reaching out to ask my friend Debbie for help!!!!!, as Luck would have it though Debbie was indeed off work this week, So being kids about town😁, we decide to throw in a crafty hot chocolate and a delectable moist slice of chocolate brownie while out, (yes we both know this isn’t good for either of us, but somehow knowing it’s naughty just adds to its temptation😁 , plus it’s been an age since we have caught up with each other, and there’s nothing better than a slice of cake with your hot serving of gossip…

This is Monday when we make these arrangements, leaving plenty of time for me to work myself up into a right screaming meany(I do excel at this 😁) by Monday night I’m already nice and edgy, I know full well as much as I enjoy Debbies company(not to mention the cake of course) I will have developed some sort of Berry Berry,Small pox, Consumption, or Parvovirus anything to avoid stumbling about mixing with real live human people type beings 😁, but this time I cannot excuse myself, I need to pick up my meds, I’m down to the last three of both tablets. Being without either med, is far more serious than any uncomfortable sensation I could ever feel of being outside.

I woke up Tuesday morning to a bright sunny Dawn, but there was already the weight of doom and gloom weighing down heavily upon my chest., With that and one very swollen painful left leg that kept waking me throughout the night, I feel a justification creeping up here to cancel the arrangements for the next day, (never thought I would see the day when my leg became an enabler😁,) but pain in the leg or no, still I know full well I have to leave the safe confines of home, but I don’t wanna!!!! sighs.

So all day Tuesday even though I’m doped up on a wonderful mixture of strong pain killers and caffeinated to the maximum amount, I keep busy, I do things I have put off for weeks, things that don’t require my attention, both Sage and Cinnamon hide cowering in the corners as I thoroughly clean their homes much to their disgust, I do anything to keep occupied, my mind away from the next day, (I’m even putting off going to bed that night, because like any child excited knows, it makes the next day come around all the sooner..but I do so in the knowledge,I now have an exceptionally clean house and pets..😁

Wednesday..

As my eyes flicker open, and the light streams in from the cracks in the red striped curtains, unwelcomely hits my startled eyes, I feel like I’m about to be thrown into a large pack of underfed hungry lions, not in reality go out to enjoy an hour or so with a friend, everything feels like it’s running in slow motion, moving requires energy, and my reserve’s are already flashing on the red warning light, to make matters worse I cannot boost it with a healthy shot of caffeine, last thing I need, while out is my stomach going into an oh gawd blimey rebellion mode…as it only it knows how…my mind confused and sleep befuddled, I mumble profanities to myself as I hobble into the bathroom, flinching instinctively as the first drops of stinging icy cold water hits my skin, like a thousand mini electric shocks, I had just seconds previous been partially warm still, from my soft fleece clad bed, by now though I am all too wide awake…

I dress more for comfort, never being someone who dresses up unless it’s required of course, still shaking from the chill of the water, I sit on my bed, trying hard to focus on the early dawn chorus(this would normally sooth me) today though I’m already far too agitated, even at this 11th hour I long to call the whole thing off, I’ve already cleaned out the pets hoping their presence will warm my mood., instead though later as I try without success to apply my make up, streaking a long black line from my eye down to my cheek, Sage the budgie swinging back and forth on his cage swing comes out with a well timed Ha ha, (could be a coincident but knowing him I doubt this…no Solidarity there then…

Jesse is by now awake, and we chat back and forth, his voice is rich, soft and soothing, I feel my breathing drop from an unhealthy hyperventilating, to a calm distracted normality, I’m almost relaxed, I say almost…😁,

The morning escapade does indeed go by without disaster, and as always once I’m actually prized kicking and screaming out of the front door, things go ok, soon we chatter away like a couple of excited sparrows, between Debbie and Jesse I find I can cope with just about anything, Plus Debbie knows how to lure me out, just mention cake of some form of another. Going out did as expected come with a price tag, we let ourselves loose around the shopping aisle of a super market, bad bad idea, I spent £2 over my carefully planned budget, I hate doing this, I know it’s not a vast fortune, and doesn’t drastically alter the economy, but it bugs me. That said I now have enough soap powder here to last month’s 😁

We also sat in a lovely clean cafe indulging ourselves to the full with a scrumptious chocolate muffin each, soon as I tasted it’s rich smooth moist chocolate softness, being out among others hit the background, I no longer saw anything other than the task at hand, my hands and t shirt were soon covered in a multitude of crumbs, but I cared not, I ate every delectable mouthful and even licked my fingers, this was a rare treat and I found myself enjoying it tremendously…

The day had been a far cry in fact from how it started out, I had long since forgotten the panic of leaving the safety of my cave like home, there were indeed no lions, Tigers, Dinosaurs lurking round street corners ready to snap my head from my shoulders, Even the endless earworm(song) of the last three days ceased it playing in my head in repeat(Bad moon in the rise) it’s predictions left unfulfilled, I had survived intact, my wallet somewhat lighter but a trifle price to pay even for this frugaler….until our next adventure, stay safe, stay well and look after you ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤, I see a bad moon a rising ! 😁 🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶