I would firstly like to say I woke up feeling like I didn’t want to move my achy body or do a darn thing today(but I can’t do this as it implies that I actually slept in the first place,. when infact I know full well I didnt). It all began roughly around 2am this morning, when a somewhat tired Jesse looked up from his keyboard where just moments previously he had been feverishly working away on a project… He asked quizzically, “what day is it today”? …half asleep by then, I look at him and with all seriousness, and say “Tuesday”, . Jesse replies back no actually it’s Wednesday.., I try to take this on board for a moment, my sleep deprived mind in non co operation mode, Surely not I muse, it had to be Tuesday right?, It felt like a Tuesday, looked like a Tuesday ….I know, I know what does a Tuesday look like?, Answers on a postcard please, (there no prize but it could be fun) Anyhow this totally rocked my orbit for me….I’m slowly processing this new and confusing information😁, when wham! I realise it has infact gone 2am, not only that but on a Wednesday morning, and I hadn’t taken out the recycling bin😳😱😳, to any “normal” person this is no big deal, the bin was only half full anyway, or is that half empty?hmmm, but once this dawns on me, I can no longer settle or concentrate….
Our bin collection is early morning here, anywhere between 6 or 7 am, it’s 2:30,. I see what your thinking, well just put it out now and have done, forget about and sleep right ????😁, Nope I couldn’t do that…shh the sleeping are neighbours….you ever tried to trundle one of those blooming bins quietly?…believe me it’s impossible, yes Ive tried😁, so there’s only one thing for it, take it out at 6, …that’s only four hours away…you’ve got this Treez,
By now Jesse is settle down softly sleeping for the night, we had put on a good old favourite Nordic noir detective series called Beck to sleepwatch(yes it’s thing)…perfect bedtime viewing lol, …I lay awake making it through the first episode, my eyes closing off and on from time to time, but I’m filled with a determination not to give in to this, it’s not happening, I need to get this bin out..eyes droop slowly down as I think this, it’s a conspiracy, I’m sure of it, .I do doze momentarily though, I must have…because when I look up at my tablet screen again, there in all his glory stood in just his tight Speedo underwear is a man flexing his errrrr muscles, yes muscles that’s it😁, talking very straight faced, deadly earnest about male incontinence wear….woahhhhh screeching to a halt here! Hang on there a cotton picking moment, what???? ..unless Detective Beck is moonlighing doing the odd commercial or has an issue he is seriously wanting to share with half the free world, theres something amiss…..when your half asleep and its 4am, your minds gone AWOL for the night, the closed sign till further notice well and truly up…You find you just can’t take your eyes from the screen..😁😳, I now can’t get this vision out of my mind, it’s burnt, most likely permanently, for all time on the backs of my eyes ..after sitting eyes blinking watching another fifteen minutes of the programme, I discovered that what I had actually just witnessed was in fact a commercial…I had inadvertently put on Freevee….phew my favourite detective was not reduced to selling depends pants for men on my telebox…I was beginning to feel sorry for him, even thinking maybe about starting his own go fund me page….that’s a relief then……
I do manage to stay awake in the end till 5:50, near enough,plopping my cold feet into my warm fuzzy red slippers, I unlock the door and creep out silently into the still inky blue -black dawn, I shiver involuntarily, it’s still cold at this time, I grab the bin and begin to try and walk it as quietly as I can…it’s impossible, in the early stillness it sounds almost like it’s echoing, booming out for All to hear and not only in my street …I shush it without thinking😁, but it’s too late, I see a curtain twitch sending a chinkof light out into the dreary darkness, I try ducking down behind the bin as I wheel it…but as I do this I can almost hear in my mind, my neighbours wife,s voice saying ..”oh it’s ok Chris it’s just our crazy neighbour taking her bin for a walk”….😁
Mission accomplished, I come in and lay down on my bed, the blankets still warm from where I had just moments before left them…I snuggle down in their comforting softness hoping to at least get a wee nap in before it’s too late….there’s not a chance though, I’m wide awake..
Later on at some point I know without a doubt I have to go on another walk, this is after all an on going project, if I’m to have any kind of mobility left in the years to come, I have to exercise…I knew I was putting off the inevitable, no sleep, too tired to eat, I couldn’t bring myself even to put on my shoes let alone leave the actual flat….I hurt after yesterday’s excursion, I did everything to delay, clean the kitchen, phone my daughter, not that I don’t do that anyway,… But after an hour chatting to Becky, I decided enough was indeed enough…I reluctantly pull on my trainers, snatch grouchily up my hoody and leave before I could change my mind yet again…
The further I walked from home, the harder it became, I felt the pull of home more strongly today, I needed the warmth of my room, to surround myself with my fleece blankets, ..instead I walk on..I realise I must cut a sad figure, walking out alone, phone in one hand, cane in the other…At some point that morning I had decided if I did indeed set out at all, I would try to do the twenty minute walk to the shops…I kept this information to myself, just in case it became too much and I changed my way half way…but I didn’t, the residual aching from yesterday, even the abcess I had developed upon my leg didn’t stop this need to see this to the finish line…today in all I put myself to the test and I won!…..twenty minutes walk there, twenty back, an exercise bike ride …my knees swollen more than usual, I hurt everywhere you can hurt…but the elation of completing everything I had set out to, crossing that finishing line makes it all worthwhile….let’s see what tomorrow brings though, take care out there folks 😁💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛
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