The three

I’ve not been about for some weeks, ..I think I’ve lost my writing mojo, well not lost it exactly ,perhaps just mislaid is a more appropriate word, this does happen from time to time , Mayhap,s my ever mischievous bunny Cinnamon buries it in one of his beloved Amazon boxes .( He thanks you greatly Amazon )…so what bought me back your asking ? It’s odd really , but I needed an outlet for IT! It being this,….a place it could live and hopefully in recording it here, giving it some recognition, the spooked sensation will leave my over tired mind in peace ….see It all began with this dream…………..

The three……it was dark , that deep murky inky blue kind of dark, just moments before it turns into black, yet off someplace in the distance remained, a patch of pale blue sky, streaked with threads of Crimson, Gold and Coral,s ..on a huge platform, something akin to a steel girder stood three people ,

Centre a woman, either side of her a man, in this dream I hovered , levitating just above the young girls left shoulder, I say I hovered yet not quite, for I felt everything with absolute clarity what she felt in that moment, so while being above , I was in fact part of her somehow, joined,. I would like to say I felt fear, yet it transcended this,to become far more intense, perhaps terror, or panic, it was in total control of her body, with that mine too…I was very aware of the wind whipping at strands of hair about her face, it’s coolness, chill…could it be this, that had covered her body in tiny pin prick,a of almost painful goosebumps?, yet at that very same time beads of sweat amassed on her forehead and trickled down the small of her back …it was uncomfortable and she dashed away with annoyance a trickle that has managed to drip and sting her eye .

the loose crochet style poncho top,doesn’t afford any warmth,it flaps about her torso , as she gazed with glassy eyes ever forward into the evening sky , they were fixed to a spot on the horizon, with hers mine were too, both of us aware of the men either side, yet only in a blurred far off way,

I suddenly hear distant crowd voices, hushed, almost innocuous, lacking import, yet their presence a most crucial part of that moment, some pointed upward, others stood eyes raised, they felt near ,all about us, at the same time, a million miles down below , like tiny busy bustling insects, it’s at that very precise moment , I felt something new, something she was bravely trying so very hard to shield us both from….it was the fact we are all indeed high up on our steel girder way above terra firma, it hits me hard,( in doing so her too,

her legs quiver, adrenalin pumping through twinned bodies, hearts, minds spinning as if loose in the skulls, the crowd swims in and out of focus, as I look down among them , but even though i,m looking at the ground coming up fast to meet me, she remains staring forward, frozen, yet wavering in the breeze ….i feel the nearness of the man stood to her left, the same side I’m on, I feel know him, not just know, but feel he means much to us both, I feel trust, a quiet peacefulness about him , warmth amongst the chill , him just being, feeds us both strength ….

His voice whispers through the night air, carrying on the breeze , yet reaches our ears and his words hush the quake wracking both bodies, he cajoled, soothes, calmly imparting the knowledge , that’s already installed within us, I and of course her know our fate, we know the outcome….yet with utter trust in the soft voice we are prepared to take what is that utter leap of faith …

the man stood the other side , has remained in silence, there’s a darkness about him felt, yet unexplainable, he has just an outline no true form,a smoky shadow, no face, but I sense ugly, a malevolence that again we know , yet it’s hidden deep ….I don’t understand why his there, he offers nothing, he brings no solice and his darkness has flooded me with fear, but again his vital ,I sense this….

the quiet voice speaks again, ” you know why we are all here” ” you know what’s expected ” . ” It will soon all be over” I will stay with you until the very end ” ” I can lend you courage,strength, but I can’t do this for you” ” you alone must decide” we both knew there was only one choice, one way this was to be , end….bravely the girl lifted her arms above her head, holding them there for minutes, until suddenly without any notice, she launched herself off her lofty perch , almost as if pushed , propelled , arms still aloft she spiralled ever on downward, eyes closed, shutting out the inevitable,and both our fates , the crowds hushed whispers become louder, intakes of breath , screams rent the air, in what felt a life time , the small figure crashes into the cold dank depths, we swallow lungs full of the freezing water, it burns, shocks, and we fight to stay connected, conscious, as I drift away im aware of two horses and their riders, backs to us, up to their hocks in water, their tails like seaweed flowing in the night tide, it’s then as I leave my body I realise the height was far to far up and this part of river too shallow, we were never meant to survive , I see our bodies float away and there I wake left choking to breathe , the dream so real I expect to look up to see darkness and my companions floating body, my hearts racing and I clutch the covers up about my body for comfort , I can still see and hear , feel everything hours later, and later on while the water from my shower splashed my face , for seconds I was transported and panicked, for moments I relived my night time world ……I Thank you for letting me release it here, where hopefully it will let me lay it to rest , stay well and take care out there xx.